Wow it's been forever since I updated but here it is! I'm going to start doing a video blog. I promise once a week to put up a video the hope is 5 min. every night. Well it all depends on how long it takes to upload it. So far it's up to five minutes. oh well maybe I'll make them shorter from this point on.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
The journey back to the past!
I've put up some videos that make me think about where i've been what i believe and where i hope to head! I hope they touch you the way they have me!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
blast from the past!!!!!!!!!!!!
So i kinda have this memory box and i try adding things to it every year so i was working on what to put in in for 2010 and ended up spending some time going through it i found some old poems i wrote and thought i'd share them. This is only 1/3 of them getting tired of typing (also why this is short) BUT i have much to share and will hopefully tmw after church. Love ya all!!
What to do
I’m tired of the lies
It’s making me just want to die
I need to tell you the truth
Before I go through the roof
I’ve liked you ever since I can remember
You went out with my friend
And I thought it was the end
So many things have changed
But my feelings for you have stayed the same
Know when I look at you
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know when to speak
All I know is these feelings are deep
I guess what I really want to know
Is which way I need to go
Do I need to get over this
Because I’m going to get dissed
Or is there a chance
You will finally take me up on that dance
The doors of change
Love is in the air
And it blossoms everywhere
Friends get closer than they’ve ever done before
Some begin to look at a different one they adore
Some stay best friends some become lovers
Many talk about everything just to hear the voice of each other
Some talk to talk
Some even go for a walk
And some are confused and are wondering what to do
I’m beginning to think that is me and you
What is Love
What is love?
Is it a symbol of a dove
Maybe it’s the bond of parent and child
Or how that certain person makes your whole world goes wild
Is it how you feel when you look in your lovers’ eyes
Or the pain you feel when a close friend dies
Maybe it’s how you go all out for that special boy
Or how a baby feels when it’s daddy gives it a new toy
Is it how we look at each other
Or that bond you have with your mother
Who know what love truly is
All I know is I’m blessed to call you friend
Why I hate you
I hate how nice you are
I hate how you make me smile
I hate how you know exactly what to say
I hate the way your smile lights up my day
I hate the way I let my defense down when you’re around
I hate how I feel when you draw near
I hate the fact you’re so sweet
I have the fact that when I look in your eye’s I feel safe
I hate the fact you are too good to even be my friend
I hate the way you care about how I feel
I HATE YOU BECAUSE I CAN’T
WHAT IS A KISS
It’s that soft feeling
That comes from the touch of two lips
It’s that comforting feeling
That you get when you’re hip to hip
It’s that gentle caress
In the middle of the night
Even if you’re depressed
They still hold you tight
As your lips touch
The world disappears
And you know you needed that so much
Now you can overcome the darkest of you fears
What is a kiss
Something you will always miss
Why I’ll miss you
Your eyes
Your smile
Your kindness
Your soft voice
Your smooth hair
Your words of advice
Your perspective of life
The way you light up my day
The way your smile is so inviting
The way you see right into my heart
The way I feel when you look me in the eye
The way you make me laugh even when I feel bad
The way your hands are so soft as you wipe away my tear
The way when you call my name my heart skips a beat
The way you say everything without saying a word
The way you make me feel when you are around
The way my shield drops when you smile
The way you change my whole day
The way you say my friend
I’ll miss you because
You are you
What I saw when I turned around
When I turned around
All I could see was a frown
Then a tear drop rolled down her face
All I could do was to try and slow the pace
I asked if she was ok
She said I wish it was another day
As she stood there and cried
All I could feel was like the whole world just died
As the tears keep rolling around
I watched them fall quickly to the ground
As they disgraced her and her name
I think to myself how I’d love to see them tamed
As I turned to fuss them out
I just start to scream and shout
But all I could ask was why
Why-oh-why
What to do
I’m tired of the lies
It’s making me just want to die
I need to tell you the truth
Before I go through the roof
I’ve liked you ever since I can remember
You went out with my friend
And I thought it was the end
So many things have changed
But my feelings for you have stayed the same
Know when I look at you
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know when to speak
All I know is these feelings are deep
I guess what I really want to know
Is which way I need to go
Do I need to get over this
Because I’m going to get dissed
Or is there a chance
You will finally take me up on that dance
The doors of change
Love is in the air
And it blossoms everywhere
Friends get closer than they’ve ever done before
Some begin to look at a different one they adore
Some stay best friends some become lovers
Many talk about everything just to hear the voice of each other
Some talk to talk
Some even go for a walk
And some are confused and are wondering what to do
I’m beginning to think that is me and you
What is Love
What is love?
Is it a symbol of a dove
Maybe it’s the bond of parent and child
Or how that certain person makes your whole world goes wild
Is it how you feel when you look in your lovers’ eyes
Or the pain you feel when a close friend dies
Maybe it’s how you go all out for that special boy
Or how a baby feels when it’s daddy gives it a new toy
Is it how we look at each other
Or that bond you have with your mother
Who know what love truly is
All I know is I’m blessed to call you friend
Why I hate you
I hate how nice you are
I hate how you make me smile
I hate how you know exactly what to say
I hate the way your smile lights up my day
I hate the way I let my defense down when you’re around
I hate how I feel when you draw near
I hate the fact you’re so sweet
I have the fact that when I look in your eye’s I feel safe
I hate the fact you are too good to even be my friend
I hate the way you care about how I feel
I HATE YOU BECAUSE I CAN’T
WHAT IS A KISS
It’s that soft feeling
That comes from the touch of two lips
It’s that comforting feeling
That you get when you’re hip to hip
It’s that gentle caress
In the middle of the night
Even if you’re depressed
They still hold you tight
As your lips touch
The world disappears
And you know you needed that so much
Now you can overcome the darkest of you fears
What is a kiss
Something you will always miss
Why I’ll miss you
Your eyes
Your smile
Your kindness
Your soft voice
Your smooth hair
Your words of advice
Your perspective of life
The way you light up my day
The way your smile is so inviting
The way you see right into my heart
The way I feel when you look me in the eye
The way you make me laugh even when I feel bad
The way your hands are so soft as you wipe away my tear
The way when you call my name my heart skips a beat
The way you say everything without saying a word
The way you make me feel when you are around
The way my shield drops when you smile
The way you change my whole day
The way you say my friend
I’ll miss you because
You are you
What I saw when I turned around
When I turned around
All I could see was a frown
Then a tear drop rolled down her face
All I could do was to try and slow the pace
I asked if she was ok
She said I wish it was another day
As she stood there and cried
All I could feel was like the whole world just died
As the tears keep rolling around
I watched them fall quickly to the ground
As they disgraced her and her name
I think to myself how I’d love to see them tamed
As I turned to fuss them out
I just start to scream and shout
But all I could ask was why
Why-oh-why
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Some free time
Well i had a few minutes before church so I thought I'd give you all a quick update on me.
I just got back from a conference in Orlando with all of my colleagues in the state of Fl. It was a big eye opener. I enjoyed it a lot!!! Truth be told I really really LOVE my job! it's a bit hard being away from so many family and friends and not having the money to really go visit because like this weekend i had the time just no the money. Oh well :D all things in time, i will be up in a few weeks for my moms birthday (took some vacation time) but even then I'll only be there for 2 days :/ i have to work that Saturday in order to come up with some gas money to help lessen the blow. Any way well enough of that. How is my life, well i hate to report it consist of a lot of ADULTNESS WOW yes i'm growing up :'( I get up around six get ready for work, work until normally 7 or so (it's summer so the sun stays up longer so i work longer, not sure if that's a good thing or not but at least it keeps me busy and it's free entertainment :P ) then i come home eat and start my preparation for bed. that's my day in a nut shell.
Well it's time for my meeting <3 u all more to come later!
I just got back from a conference in Orlando with all of my colleagues in the state of Fl. It was a big eye opener. I enjoyed it a lot!!! Truth be told I really really LOVE my job! it's a bit hard being away from so many family and friends and not having the money to really go visit because like this weekend i had the time just no the money. Oh well :D all things in time, i will be up in a few weeks for my moms birthday (took some vacation time) but even then I'll only be there for 2 days :/ i have to work that Saturday in order to come up with some gas money to help lessen the blow. Any way well enough of that. How is my life, well i hate to report it consist of a lot of ADULTNESS WOW yes i'm growing up :'( I get up around six get ready for work, work until normally 7 or so (it's summer so the sun stays up longer so i work longer, not sure if that's a good thing or not but at least it keeps me busy and it's free entertainment :P ) then i come home eat and start my preparation for bed. that's my day in a nut shell.
Well it's time for my meeting <3 u all more to come later!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Coming of age :/
So as I noted earlier I work 2 jobs, it was 1st to support my dancing, however it turned into helping me pay my bills, which is sad but a blessing at the same time. Any way all that 2 say while at my second job, which is cleaning houses; I had a lot of time to think while sweeping all the sand up. the topics where as varied as the grains of sand however there was one that entertained a portion of time and made me kinda take a step back and laugh, tear, and sigh all at once. can u guess what it was, oh come on just guess. ok think a little bit deeper, what has jenny wanted for a long long time, and it's not a kitchen aid I have that thanks to family and friends :D
Ok fine it was about marriage more specifically a spouse. I had one of those reflective moments where i compared my old list of wants to well my "maturer" wants. here are just a few of them that made me go WOW, i'm growing up aka growing old ;)
Then- some one who had severed a mission for my church
Now- Someone who serves the Lord at all times and in all places
Then- Someone who would buy me whatever I wanted
Now- Someone who has a grasp of money management and knows how to plan for tomorrow but can still enjoy spending some of it today
Then- Someone who could make me laugh
Now- Someone one who can effectively communicate, and doesn't bottle up
Then- Someone who's "Sexy"
Now- Someone who cares most about what he looks like on the inside because the hottest men i have ever meet are those who reflect the light of the Savior
Then- One who has a desire to work
Now- Someone who has a testimony of balancing family and work, $ can't replace kids
Then- Someone who "has" the priesthood
Now- Someone who honors his priesthood, and would NEVER think more then twice about getting up at 3 am to use it
Then- Someone who can DANCE
Now- Someone who is willing to LEARN to dance :D
these are just a few, now for some that haven't changed YET and I hope never will!
Someone who I can trust
Someone who I can cry in front of
Someone who knows when I say lets not talk about it now will give me time
Someone who knows when I really need to talk
Someone who puts the Lord first but always keeps me 2nd!
Someone who can touch me and it feels like fire on my skin
Someone who will take me to the House of the Lord so we can be sealed for time and all eternity not because we need to be, but because he couldn't imagine an eternity without me in it.
I know these all may seem a bit funny but it really made me realize I'm growing in my understanding of what true happiness requires, which is both cool and scary ;)
Well that's a large incite into me but now since u know well ummm if u have someone who fit's my now's well by all things good give him my number, e-mail, heck tell em I'm on facebook ;) :D :P
Any who know as I grow as understand that many other things about me are changing, even how I view things. I hope for the better, but unfortunately not always, so please be patient with me as I continue to grow, but know how grateful I am for each and everyone of you and the things you have taught me.
Here's to growing older together!!!
Ok fine it was about marriage more specifically a spouse. I had one of those reflective moments where i compared my old list of wants to well my "maturer" wants. here are just a few of them that made me go WOW, i'm growing up aka growing old ;)
Then- some one who had severed a mission for my church
Now- Someone who serves the Lord at all times and in all places
Then- Someone who would buy me whatever I wanted
Now- Someone who has a grasp of money management and knows how to plan for tomorrow but can still enjoy spending some of it today
Then- Someone who could make me laugh
Now- Someone one who can effectively communicate, and doesn't bottle up
Then- Someone who's "Sexy"
Now- Someone who cares most about what he looks like on the inside because the hottest men i have ever meet are those who reflect the light of the Savior
Then- One who has a desire to work
Now- Someone who has a testimony of balancing family and work, $ can't replace kids
Then- Someone who "has" the priesthood
Now- Someone who honors his priesthood, and would NEVER think more then twice about getting up at 3 am to use it
Then- Someone who can DANCE
Now- Someone who is willing to LEARN to dance :D
these are just a few, now for some that haven't changed YET and I hope never will!
Someone who I can trust
Someone who I can cry in front of
Someone who knows when I say lets not talk about it now will give me time
Someone who knows when I really need to talk
Someone who puts the Lord first but always keeps me 2nd!
Someone who can touch me and it feels like fire on my skin
Someone who will take me to the House of the Lord so we can be sealed for time and all eternity not because we need to be, but because he couldn't imagine an eternity without me in it.
I know these all may seem a bit funny but it really made me realize I'm growing in my understanding of what true happiness requires, which is both cool and scary ;)
Well that's a large incite into me but now since u know well ummm if u have someone who fit's my now's well by all things good give him my number, e-mail, heck tell em I'm on facebook ;) :D :P
Any who know as I grow as understand that many other things about me are changing, even how I view things. I hope for the better, but unfortunately not always, so please be patient with me as I continue to grow, but know how grateful I am for each and everyone of you and the things you have taught me.
Here's to growing older together!!!
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