Coming of age :/

So as I noted earlier I work 2 jobs, it was 1st to support my dancing, however it turned into helping me pay my bills, which is sad but a blessing at the same time. Any way all that 2 say while at my second job, which is cleaning houses; I had a lot of time to think while sweeping all the sand up. the topics where as varied as the grains of sand however there was one that entertained a portion of time and made me kinda take a step back and laugh, tear, and sigh all at once. can u guess what it was, oh come on just guess. ok think a little bit deeper, what has jenny wanted for a long long time, and it's not a kitchen aid I have that thanks to family and friends :D
Ok fine it was about marriage more specifically a spouse. I had one of those reflective moments where i compared my old list of wants to well my "maturer" wants. here are just a few of them that made me go WOW, i'm growing up aka growing old ;)

Then- some one who had severed a mission for my church
Now- Someone who serves the Lord at all times and in all places

Then- Someone who would buy me whatever I wanted
Now- Someone who has a grasp of money management and knows how to plan for tomorrow but can still enjoy spending some of it today

Then- Someone who could make me laugh
Now- Someone one who can effectively communicate, and doesn't bottle up

Then- Someone who's "Sexy"
Now- Someone who cares most about what he looks like on the inside because the hottest men i have ever meet are those who reflect the light of the Savior

Then- One who has a desire to work
Now- Someone who has a testimony of balancing family and work, $ can't replace kids

Then- Someone who "has" the priesthood
Now- Someone who honors his priesthood, and would NEVER think more then twice about getting up at 3 am to use it

Then- Someone who can DANCE
Now- Someone who is willing to LEARN to dance :D

these are just a few, now for some that haven't changed YET and I hope never will!

Someone who I can trust
Someone who I can cry in front of
Someone who knows when I say lets not talk about it now will give me time
Someone who knows when I really need to talk
Someone who puts the Lord first but always keeps me 2nd!
Someone who can touch me and it feels like fire on my skin
Someone who will take me to the House of the Lord so we can be sealed for time and all eternity not because we need to be, but because he couldn't imagine an eternity without me in it.


I know these all may seem a bit funny but it really made me realize I'm growing in my understanding of what true happiness requires, which is both cool and scary ;)

Well that's a large incite into me but now since u know well ummm if u have someone who fit's my now's well by all things good give him my number, e-mail, heck tell em I'm on facebook ;) :D :P

Any who know as I grow as understand that many other things about me are changing, even how I view things. I hope for the better, but unfortunately not always, so please be patient with me as I continue to grow, but know how grateful I am for each and everyone of you and the things you have taught me.

Here's to growing older together!!!